Current Mood: flirty

okay. well alot of shit has been going on the past few weeks.  
  Well me and one of my  friends alan arent talking.  because well alan really likes me (so he says) and im madly in love with john and have been for over a year now. Well me and john werent talking. so me and alan dated and blahh blah. but now im back with john. So alan totally hates me. And I thought I would be fine without Alan, but i dont know if I am. Hes like my bestest friend. I can talk to him about anything and everything. And now he hates me. It really sucks. He told me that was my last chance and I ruined it. So I dont know if he will end up talking to me again or not. but I guess we'll find out. 
   Then theres John. I love him more than anything in this world. Me and him have been through everything together. This is prolly the 100th time we dated. All last year he cheated on me with my best friend and stuff but i kept giving him chances. And he said this time would be different every time i gave him another chance. And he said it again this time. And i gave him another chance. im just afraid that the one time i say no will be the time he really did change. My trust is getting stronger as time goes by. but im afraid one of these weekends will end and ill go to school with him in some other girls arms. I hate having to worry about these things but i guess you go through alot for love. I just dont know how long I'll be able to handle all this stress. Hopefully for a while because i love being with him.
  My dad has been working out of town. Which means my mom is sneaking to see her boyfriend Tj. It bothers me because i love my dad to death. Everyone thinks hes an asshole but hes not. hes just protective of me and doesnt want me ending up like him and my mom. I love Tj too but I dont know. Hes kool and when my my leaves me and my dad and i go up and see her. Its fun because tj is awesome but its just really confusing.
  i just wanna get rid of this stress.
                                                    well thats enuff for now.

Current Mood: stressed

okay. well alot of shit has been going on the past few weeks.  
  Well me and one of my  friends alan arent talking.  because well alan really likes me (so he says) and im madly in love with john and have been for over a year now. Well me and john werent talking. so me and alan dated and blahh blah. but now im back with john. So alan totally hates me. And I thought I would be fine without Alan, but i dont know if I am. Hes like my bestest friend. I can talk to him about anything and everything. And now he hates me. It really sucks. He told me that was my last chance and I ruined it. So I dont know if he will end up talking to me again or not. but I guess we'll find out. 
   Then theres John. I love him more than anything in this world. Me and him have been through everything together. This is prolly the 100th time we dated. All last year he cheated on me with my best friend and stuff but i kept giving him chances. And he said this time would be different every time i gave him another chance. And he said it again this time. And i gave him another chance. im just afraid that the one time i say no will be the time he really did change. My trust is getting stronger as time goes by. but im afraid one of these weekends will end and ill go to school with him in some other girls arms. I hate having to worry about these things but i guess you go through alot for love. I just dont know how long I'll be able to handle all this stress. Hopefully for a while because i love being with him.
  My dad has been working out of town. Which means my mom is sneaking to see her boyfriend Tj. It bothers me because i love my dad to death. Everyone thinks hes an asshole but hes not. hes just protective of me and doesnt want me ending up like him and my mom. I love Tj too but I dont know. Hes kool and when my my leaves me and my dad and i go up and see her. Its fun because tj is awesome but its just really confusing.
  i just wanna get rid of this stress.
                                                    well thats enuff for now.

Current Mood: stressed